Writing to Run
In the Bible it states, “Write the vision that you may run with it.” I like writing. People tell me it’s a gifting. “You have a way with words.” You know, when I was younger, whenever it was Mother’s Day or a holiday, I always did think I was good at expressing sentiments in a card…..
I like writing. I like it when I am sitting in dimly lit coffee shop sipping an iced soy café au lait and staring at the funky décor. And I enjoy grabbing my journal and pen and writing by the dim glow of my cell phone in the middle of the night. But I like it best when it is early in the morning and the world is still asleep, and it is simply me, God, and the faint orange streaks in the horizon that inspire creation in words.
I’m searching for a job right now and people keeping asking me what I like to do, “What’s your passion?” Truthfully, I don’t know. I enjoy lots of things. My nephew’s laugh. My niece’s hugs. Music. Horses. The beach. Coffee. But I really can’t make a career out of any of those.
Today, as I typed up a letter for my uncle (who I am helping part-time), he asked, “What could you be obsessed about?” Tears brimmed in my eyes, “I don’t know.” He says, “I know what you want: to marry an athlete and have lots of children.”
And then I admitted it. It’s true.Maybe not the athlete part (although, in days of yore, in the era of Dan Majerle, yes) but I do want to be married and have many children, to lazily write while they are napping or in school, to support my husband 1000% in his calling, to travel with my dad, and eventually, if the Lord leads, to be able to speak to women across the world. So simple.
But I find I hesitate in believing that will ever happen. So, instead, I search for a career I truly don’t want. I’ve never wanted to be a successful businesswoman. I’d rather make PB&J sandwiches for school lunches (organic of course), truly connect with the heart of my husband, and take an anxious friend to lunch. I would love to freelance on the side but that would almost be a hobby, not a career.
However, this dream, this hope, this vision, is not an option for now.So, I sadly pull up monster.com and glance at opportunities I need to accept for today. They key is to remember that it is for today.
Tomorrow, I shall run with the vision.
1 Comments:
Sometimes God calls us to live our life to the fullest in areas that we never intended to live it. (AKA: Leasing apartments, selling Wedding Gowns...sound familiar?)
I know that I, too am called to minister with my husband with as many kids as God will give me & I would be perfectly conten in that life without the conference calls, spreadsheets & power suits (except for on Sunday when I play the role of the Pastors Hott wife!). Sometimes its WHAT we learn in our "careers" that will help us deal with the relationships that are to come. An annoying co-worker? (Husbands can get on your nerves!) Stress about money? (Finances are the number ONE thing marrieds fight about!) So, just remember that "This too shall pass," "He will give you the desires of your heart," & every other promise that God's word gives us. His promises are NOT JUST WORDS, they are HOPES for our lives. Remember that "Hope is the evidence of things NOT SEEN." God has great plans for you, to minister with your husband (1 can put 100 to flight, but 2 can put 10,000 to flight), to raise a GODLY family, to help hurting women. I know that all of these things will come to pass, but maybe there is something that you still need to learn before He can trust you with the GREAT & HEAVY responsibilities that HE has for you. The weight of the world may one day rest upon your shoulders (sometimes a scraped knee or a broken heart can feel like the weight of the world to someone we love).
Know this, my best friend, God has to work on you a little longer because MORE IS EXPECTED OF YOU. He is going to give you many blessings, and with the blessings come responsibilities. He is just asking you to be patient & trust that He will bring all of the desires of your heart to pass, so that when it is time, you will be ready & able to do all that He has called you to do!
I love you. Stay strong & don't give up!
PS- Thanks for putting up w/me & my drama on the whole JP saga (four years later, it never seems to end, huh?)
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